five months as a circle, things switch back and forth, no solution as the solution

 

I planned to try PM  when people talking about it, accidently found i already have done this five months ago

I made the choice of one over another five months ago and seems it is time to switch back, still accidently

everything happen in a moment, in a flash

God's will

my intuition becomes sharper and shaper, i feel myself a psycho

question is, why we always make the decision we subconsciously know it is wrong and need to be changed back later on?

that is also called destiny, that is, we always way too believe that we could change the fact

fact is not to be changed, but to be accepted, rule number one

make a mess of your life and settle it, people constantly doing this, called life

so called, i mean

 

too many things happen in these five months, Yara yelled with her middle finger pointed to sky last night

she drunk, and smashed several Yueling beer bottles

Dar kept nagging me with her view of life, how pathetic, i mean us

i had my business plans to read,  intensive reading weekend, with Desperate Housewives as background

i can see this is the time to face another couple of choices

i have no idea if it is a good idea to harsh to the result now

 

May Day is so unreliable, hot as couple of days ago, now we are again having chilly rain

eastcoast sucks, i remember everybody says so

the sunshine of last weekend, the heat, the skirt were like joke to me

like life treated me in the past five months