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    November 17

    You've got me wrapped around your little finger

    Aneducation3
    i plan to write something to you, to share what i have explored about myself most recently...
    it probably sounds like some pathetic self-murmuring, but i m glad i found those little things on myself and would love to share with you, probably you could enlighten me in some other way...
    question, have you ever really know yourself so well that you never surprise what you have found about yourself, especially at the age of 25 up and down, when you are kinda independently live by yourself, got a bunch of time to chew details about yourself? after ignoring all the sounds around you that influenced you as always?
    i do now, i kinda of in the process of getting rid of influence from outside (considering i m living in the place that you got enough solitude you need), sometimes i doubt about my past and sometimes i wondering if i could be the person i used to secretly fantasized... that is the magic of living far far away from where you are originally from, its like a fresh start that you have been that close to yourself than ever. i tell you what, that's where i m at now, and i m so enjoyed. you probably will not be surprised if i never chose to go back for a long stay, cause i never been this free and close to myself ever.

    i was listening to Beth Rowley's "you've got me wrapped around your little finger" for the upcoming movie "an education", also reading the original book. it was my first time so concentrate on a non-text book since got out of high school, or it was my first time ever seriously read in recently 2 to 3 years. isn't it ridiculous ---after all the chaos happened in my life? by "chaos", they are maybe just trivial little things to other grown ups, but they made me up gradually. the story is about a 16 years old school girl, her rebel of her planned boring life, which turned out to be an education for her. not quite anything special or different, and i believe it happens to everybody at different levels, its just draw that much attention from me simply because i shared a lot of feeling it described in the novel. the moment she indulged into her french music and fantasy world, the moment she looked at those cello school girls and wished to be one of them, the moment she smoke sobranie (believe it or not, Sobranie is the brand i smoked at my sophomore, people here in america not even heard of it, and yes, i smoked at that time, secretly), the moment she vowed she would wear black, read whatever she wanted after getting into oxford, the moment she claimed she wanted something different and was so sure and stubborn about it, etc., i saw an image of girls of that age who shared part of my growing path, a girl of that level of conscious, of that level of naive and beauty, of that level of fantasy she sticked to... isn't it beautiful and moving? even when one day you look back, you may feel yourself old, old but not very wise...?

    i know this would be another movie influence me like "the hours"  and "amelie" did, though i haven't watched it yet. still planning....
    i especially like the music "you've got me wrapped around your little finger", it's interesting, cause you don't know who is this "you", could be the David, could be Jenny herself, is her fantasy got her wrapped around step by step? funny things is that, when we young we supposed to be stupid and made mistakes, cause when we old, we will be too experienced to make the mistake, or it will be too painful to repeat the same one. you never know, if being young a curse or blessing... when look back, it definitely...still pain....but you probably will as well feel ...old...and wise?

    PS. i am glad i am still the person who have strong feeling about what happens around me or on me, you can call it emotional, but i m glad i can still feel that. i dont know what to say now, maybe when i think of something i will. 
    September 28

    说情书

    不记得是99年还是01年的专辑 黄磊的 说情书 现在找遍所有的下载网站都找不到  那张专辑也不知道丢哪里去了 总是现在不是在身边 以前喜欢的厉害 以为一直会保存至今 现在才发现 什么时候不见的都不记得了 乐评上给了星级 却都是在07年 世人还是后知后觉

    后来看他和刘若英演的 似水年华 哭得不行 都不知道自己在哭什么 就知道和文放了好多遍 老爷子的部分让人感动 现在想想 那些以前的感动 都有不见了的感觉 都不知道要不要开心 纯粹这种东西 果真是奢侈

    收集起来 怕自己以后忘记了


    -黄磊 说情书-
    黄磊说情书 《等等等等》独白
    2007-01-09 17:10
    ◎【自序】 
    近来 养了一只蠹虫 去吃一些夹在旧书页的字字句句 挺好玩的是 蠹虫跟人的阅读习惯不同 牠们吃起书来 随兴所至 不按编页 不谙作者原意 想读哪 就吃哪 很像我少年读书的习惯 有兴趣 一路追逐到底 没耐性 就只捡图片看 当然 养蠹虫是假的 这是我近来想要的幻想 实情是 我想把读过的书拿来重读 我曾有一段迷恋书的青涩时光 为了搜寻绝版的初版本 为了收集各版的翻译本 为了完整典藏作者各种著作 我曾发疯似地 四处向人追问 那段日子 书 被我如此的挚爱着 
    「人间四月天」是引发我这么想的引子 像是一本书的序 它诱发我去找我遗失的记性 也像见老同学似的 重读自己挚爱过的书 看看老同学市否无恙 也察察自己在老同学眼中是否依旧 人总是会成长变化 尤其是和旧事物放在一起 就特别显见 『等等等等』这个专辑 就是我自己记忆书房里的十本藏书 只是 这次我给它们做了配乐还加注了我的心痛 
    把说情书里面说的部分整理出来:
    ◎ 【橘子红了vs琦君的(橘子红了)】 
    读琦君的〔乡愁〕 是我十二岁的时候 像赫塞的〔乡愁〕 林海音的〔城南旧事〕 我一直对〔童年自传〕文体非常着迷 〔橘子红了〕这部琦君小说改编的戏 没想到我能出演 我一直很喜欢琦君对人的厚道 妳的小说人物都没有大恶大坏 只是时局所趋让这些人纠结在一起 那天 在北京某胡同院子拍这个MTV时 我顶着〔橘子红了〕戏中的平头 冷飕飕的唱着〔橘子红了 是该摘了 不能不爱了〕 忽然有一种时日远去 人事全非的感慨 
    ◎【蝴蝶结vs老舍的(骆驼祥子)】 
    老舍的 骆驼祥子 讲的是祥子 不是骆驼 我要讲的是骆驼祥子 是他的贫穷和爱情 不是他拉车的悲惨命运 我常常想 一个穷极的人的感情状态 没有了咖啡 电影 华服和情书 有的只是夹在债务 灰尘 生活琐事与人事压迫 这样的背景 谈的恋爱 会是怎样的谈法 「晚上 他回到车厂 身上已极疲乏 但是还不肯忘了这件事 一天的失望 他不敢再盼望什么了 苦人是容易死的 苦人死了是容易被忘掉 莫非小福子已经不在了吗 退一步想 即使她没死 二强子又把她卖掉 卖到极远的地方去 是可能的 这比死了更坏」 看了这段叙述 我更确定这彷佛人间战争的场面 非死即活 不聚则离的残酷局面 祥子即使识字 要写一首温柔的情歌给他的爱人也是不可能的 所以我唱了《蝴蝶结》用这样的心情 替祥子 
    ◎【冰点与沸点vs三蒲绫子的(冰点)】 
    「冰点」是一九六五年 日本销量最多的朝日新闻 以一千万日币征文当选的小说 全文大约三十万字 在连载期间就曾经获得了广大读者的好评 改编电视在NHK电视台黄金时间播出更是受到欢迎 身为畅销作者的三浦绫子 虽然在故事设计了许多腥膻的情节 譬如杀人事件 乱伦等等但其平易的文字 却是让这个通俗题材 受到如此广大回响的关键 女主角阳子 最后在自杀前的遗书里描述到 『爸爸 妈妈 多年来身为赖家女儿受扶养的恩惠 我没有报答就死掉 非常对不起 不久前我才说 有人杀我我也要活 我自以为自己是一个绝对不会自杀的人 人的信念是这样的不可靠』 生命常常是这样 生有死对照 沸点在冰点前更显翻腾 自己以为做不到的事情最后竟然义无反顾的去做 『冰点』不是一部严肃的文学作品 但有令人玩味的通俗感 
    ◎【妳知道我爱妳vs鹿桥的(未央歌)】 
    每个人在学时期都会有一本「自己」的小说 这小说带领着那时的自己做着青涩的梦 〔未央歌〕与其说是一本言情小说 不如说是一本〔学生小说〕 它有着许多年轻学者的追求梦想的茫然 夜未央 心已睡 梦未竟 泪已垂 〔未央歌〕有着很浓的欲赋新词强说愁的嫌疑 对于年轻岁月 有着强烈的作梦情节 尽管它和现实离得太远 鹿桥的〔未央歌〕已有十六年未读了 前几个月翻开的时候还发自己在书中夹了一封信 这信因为没有署名是写给谁的 所以也忘了是写给谁的 
    但能夹在这书中相信是自己曾经有过的一段心情在那个时候流失了 
    ◎【云烟vs刘畅园的(云烟)】 
    第一次读到刘畅园的作品〔鹿〕 就受到惊吓 诗是这样的 「以最温柔的眼睛 看世界 鹿哨幽幽 优雅地走进枪口 倒下时 温柔地望着猎人」 有人形容刘畅园的作品 有如美女卸了铅华 还了本真 显示了一派自然的秀丽幽深 朴中生华的气质 像〔云烟〕 勾勒出年龄与思想情感的层次 是很耐人寻味的作品 刘畅园 一九三二年生 黑龙江省肇东人 现为黑龙江省作家协会驻会作家 
    ◎【等等等等vs沈从文的(边城)】 
    打开书 才想起这小说写于民国二十三年四月十九日 读沈从文的小说 很像看DISCOVERY频道 总是很忠实的记载故事中的地理 人文及历史 湖南是他的故乡 一如他所说「对于农人和兵士 怀了不可言说的温爱」 他的著作 总是在他的生活环境中轻描淡写着 『边城』是描写一位湘西边境一个名叫『茶峒』的小山城 渡船夫的孙女遇见城里来的大少爷的凄美爱情故事 这样的题材并不特别 但沈从文的文字却给这个故事无限的惆怅 因为他总是那么心同此理的关照每个人物的心理状态及其为人处事的社会背景 所以他的小说很少真的恶人 因为这些「恶人」不过是被社会价值及道德所操控的可怜人罢了 就像「边城」故事的结尾 爷爷在风雨中去世 赖以维生的船也被大水冲走了 这个渡口是官派的 但穷乡僻壤的经费也不是说要有就有的 于是渡人们开始了捐钱的活动 沈从文写道「过渡人一看老船夫了 翠翠的辫子上系了白线 就明白那老的已经做完了自己份上的工作 安安静静的躺在土坑里小蛆吃掉了 并一面用同情的眼色瞧着翠翠 一面就摸出钱来塞进竹筒中去 「天保佑你 死了到西方去 活下的永保平安」 翠翠明白那些捐钱人的怜悯与同情的意思 心里酸酸的 忙着把身子背过去拉船」 沈从文对故事的人物 有很活生生的描绘 同时不像许多咬文嚼字的作者刻意避开情感的部份 依旧盼不到什么的翠翠 沈从文最后给她的台词是 这个人也许永远不会回来了 也许「明天」回来 
    ◎【背影vs朱自清的(背影)】 
    我深深觉得 每个人都一定有朱自清描绘的 自铁道中跌倒 一边检橘子的父亲印象 因为那是个集固执 僵硬 笨拙与厚实情感的综合形象 是每个人心中期盼与认为的父亲 不管你有没有这样的父亲 不管你的父亲爱不爱你 不管这形象在日后由谁来化身 不管 
    ◎【再别再别康桥vs徐志摩的(再别康桥)】 
    徐志摩的诗 以现在的标准来看 他的诗 并不是写得挺好 尤其和他的爱情故事比较起来 显得清淡了些 但我仍推荐他的作品 他的作品是中国新诗的鼻祖 有开天辟地的意味 『再别康桥』是他旅英的作品 诗中有许多诗句 已经成为流传的句子 『轻轻地我走了 正如我轻轻地来』 徐志摩的文字 淡雅 多情 甚至常常太多情 对于关注文学结构的读者来说 也许太腻 但他的那份「专注的抒情」 在现今赤裸裸的文学景况下 反而有一种逝去的温柔可忆往 
    ◎【玉卿嫂vs白先勇的(玉卿嫂)】 
    玉卿嫂这本小说是白先勇先生写的 主角是玉卿嫂 但我同情的是被玉卿嫂溺爱的庆生 庆生人弱性善 受玉卿嫂以囚鸟般的爱囚禁着 囚鸟未离开牢笼时 天空并不重要 悲剧故事有个必备条件 那就是发生了不可退让的冲突 我唱的『玉卿嫂』其实是让庆生有机会向玉卿嫂说说 在「小说」中没有机会表达的告白 要玉卿嫂知道他也有他的选择 感情没有对与错 但他还是得求得玉卿嫂的原谅 「原谅」想要的温暖 是给玉卿嫂 并不是庆生的 陷在极端的玉卿嫂相信在杀死庆生的前一刻是不明白的 
    ◎【老车站vs钟晓阳的(停车暂借问)】 
    第一次读『停车暂借问』 还以为是张爱玲写的 但读完 发现是很年轻的女孩的笔触 她比张爱玲「轻」 有棉花要远行的味道 少了张爱玲给人的利刃 对白瘪格外的温柔 我总是在想 如果有一天我去演这部小说 我会不会有徐志摩的口气 因为她的书中男主角也很多情 只是女主角就比较思想文静多人 曾听过钟晓阳写的歌词「最爱」 这次本来也邀请晓阳来填词 为这个小说 晓阳也大方的给了稿子 但曲一直没有谱好 因为「最爱」一直是我最爱的词作 我想有一天我一定会和她再合作的 
    August 16

    smelly cat

    i cannot believe what just happened, but i have to accept it. when me and yara were sitting in front door, talking about going to swim tomorrow, when we were kidding Brendan would never get close to the road, it was just so sudden that we heard that "bang", till now i cannot believe i heard that, it was Brendan. I cannot believe my eyes until i got close to the road, and i cannot help to yielded at the cars came up to ask them to change the lane! but i know Brendan already got hit by the car, whatever that car is, he just hit Brendan. i ran into the road and grab him back, i remember i could feel his warm and breath when i grabbed him, at that moment i was sure he just need doctor! he was not even bleeding, just being wake and looked at me, i was so panic, i didnt know what to do, yara said he is dead, also Darlene said so, i dont know how they can tell without even tough the little cat, again i cannot believe i heard that "bang". we tried 411, tried everything, i didnt believe he was died when Darlene said he was! i kinda hate anybody told me this, cause i can still feel his warmth, i just cannot believe what had happened, after i talked a lot more often with Simon about him today, about Brenda is not aggressive with me compare to with other person, he feels comfortable with me and he always tried to get my attention,etc., after Simon said there are 2 opportunities that his family would take over the cat if yara dont want him anymore; after the fact that right early tonight, he was following me everywhere getting around my feet and being sweet....i feel so hurt when i realize not anymore that he would come into my room, jump onto my bed and quitely laydown besides me, not anymore that he would beg me for food, not anymore that he would try to leak me in the face, not anymore he would step on my stomach to feel the comfort, not anymore he would suddenly go crazy and play with my stuff, not anymore when i call him brendan he would come along with me, not anymore he would crazily run upstairs when i step upstairs, not anymore he would try to get the fly, .....
    i m sorry, Brendan baby. we have been bitch mom, we didnt take good care of you and not strong enough to protect you....wish u the peace....
    August 14

    Perhaps.Love

    every result has its cause, like a dream, you will finally find out all roots come from yourself....long time ago....

    i still remember last November...
    August 03

    Unaccidentally

    I took the walk to the park after arriving home today, its a weekend full of surprises. Its even more funny when I think of this morning I didnt plan to go to the church but accidently Jess got up late, we planed to leave early but stopped by the rains, the guess which skated over my mind quickly,etc., but, does it still matter? There are cars coming towards me through the thin lane of the park, I was taking risks of guessing, and unaccidentally disappointed...I went inside of the deepest part of the park, in dark, it was nice, still unaccidentally nice...I still believe there are some words are supposed to be dead into the body instead of being let out, people feel good when they let out but cares little what the words weight to others...I spent 1 hour walking back home, and told myself it was all coincidence, unaccidentally....it was just my reaction took me by surprise...I admit I suddenly had no idea what I should feel at the very moment...Fortunately there was no train available back to wilmington today, so I can spend 2 hours to wait for the bus and ease myself, I went to a cafe, sat besides the window, cried quietly a bit, surprised the old lady sit towards me who was having her second spoon of vanilla ice cream, tried to call friends I could talk to without worry, failed, then unaccidentally take the bus back to wilmington...
    I really have no idea...it was a coincidence or unaccidentally God's guiding me somewhere....Did I sound stupid?
    June 29

    old friend

    havent talked with Nancy for a while, didnt expect our conversation still in-depth and sincere as ever. Both of us are analytical, observant and love each other enough to utter the truth. The more we talk, the more we sure about the decisions we made. She had a tough one, so did i...
    i feel lucky that everytime when i kinda lose myself, God always extend help to me in every aspect of my life, give me clearer mind. 
    Nancy is right, dream is something need to be remembered all the time, thats why we support each other and remind each other what we really want at the deepest part of our hearts. Between old friends, there is nothing too ugly to show, and i know no matter how ugly the truth it can be, she will always be there, that is called friend. 
    Thanks, girl. Hopefully everything goes on well, we will be fine, or more than that...

    June 13

    我用新的portfolio整理了所有的画稿又一遍 居然有落款2001的
    L电话来说我做的memo不错 我可以慢慢学法律的东西
    今天读Joe拿来的business plan 尝试选出应该投资的对象
    我在学习接受生活中的每一个小细节 而不抱怨现在没有的东西 也不再为难自己的问下一步该怎么走
    下一步该怎么走 走好现在自然会知道
    最近有人告诉我要believe in myself 这么简单的小道理 我才发现自己学了很多年都不得要领 回头看看 其实现在才算刚刚了解这句话的一二
    另一个人说everything only go on in your mind, you can feed yourself by your mind
    越发了解前者 就越发证实后者 
    我总是在对的时间遇到错的人 错的时间遇到对的人

    换了个地方放台灯 发现靠窗的桌子其实在夏天很适用 我一直喜欢用这样的小细节来犒赏自己
    整理designing的时候很享受的发现原来自己好久没有这种享受了 原来生活太拥挤 留给自己的时间太少的缘故
    我着实的喜欢Andrew McCarthy
    大老板每天认真的叫我们kids 让我着实的很受用 我要是一直是孩子该多好
    办公室桌上的花旧的很好看 红的都凋谢了就变成黑色 只有紫色还一直久久地站在那里
    还有 我居然不知道自己可以跳舞 

    我今天听起来有点morbid

    来美国快一年才发现文化差异这种东西不单单是认知的问题 而是选择的问题 选择了一种文化 就意味着整个生活方式的改变 有时候可能是一种颠覆 
    像藏在猫毛发里面的虱子 我曾经那么的害怕改变 
    其实以前拥有的记忆根本不重要 当你意识到一些东西的时候 你就彻底relieve掉 自由掉
    听起来像疯子的呓语 只要我自己知道是怎么个意思就好

    我知道我一旦开始写字就啰嗦跟矫情起来 但是给自己那么多的judgement毕竟也不是什么聪明的事


    May 26

    EASON 最佳损友

    呢首歌詞寫得好, 仲要eason 唱得好先帶到個feel 出黎
    經歷多左就會明白首歌意思



    May 04

    五月天May Day

    five months as a circle, things switch back and forth, no solution as the solution
     
    I planned to try PM  when people talking about it, accidently found i already have done this five months ago
    I made the choice of one over another five months ago and seems it is time to switch back, still accidently
    everything happen in a moment, in a flash
    God's will
    my intuition becomes sharper and shaper, i feel myself a psycho
    question is, why we always make the decision we subconsciously know it is wrong and need to be changed back later on?
    that is also called destiny, that is, we always way too believe that we could change the fact
    fact is not to be changed, but to be accepted, rule number one
    make a mess of your life and settle it, people constantly doing this, called life
    so called, i mean
     
    too many things happen in these five months, Yara yelled with her middle finger pointed to sky last night
    she drunk, and smashed several Yueling beer bottles
    Dar kept nagging me with her view of life, how pathetic, i mean us
    i had my business plans to read,  intensive reading weekend, with Desperate Housewives as background
    i can see this is the time to face another couple of choices
    i have no idea if it is a good idea to harsh to the result now
     
    May Day is so unreliable, hot as couple of days ago, now we are again having chilly rain
    eastcoast sucks, i remember everybody says so
    the sunshine of last weekend, the heat, the skirt were like joke to me
    like life treated me in the past five months
     
     
     
     
     
     
    March 14

    some pictures

    1. DE state building
     
    2.downtown Wilmington, in front of DuPont Hotel 800 str.
     
    3 yea, parking is $15, too high for me:(
    Dupont Hotel frontview
     
    4.
     
    5. small rooms like du Barry is decent place for business luncheon
        
     
    6 Old picture of the city, actually the city itself is small
     
    7. longwood garden, dupont family property
     
     
     
     
    February 19

    i got the job! i got it!

    i got the internship! id o!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    February 13

    转敏敏--之转AJ--我们猥琐的麦加党

    March 20

    MAGIC COFFEE

    这是AJ在我们常聚的咖啡馆关闭后写的,以此作为纪念,这小子原来还挺有才的。
    ?

    那些我们发呆的时光--?

    -------星期二是个特殊的日子,这一天晚上大家都有课,所以这一天晚上大家都可以翘课。翘课是一件很有讲究的事情,翘了课就要找地方鬼混,而我们找到的地方,是一家叫做麦加的咖啡店。那里有脏兮兮的布艺沙发和面目模糊的服务员,大幅的老电影海报和小屏幕的电视机,音箱永远放一张90年代初的欧美流行音乐大合集,并且每次放到BoyzIIMenOn bended knees就会卡带。那里的咖啡只有五种,焗饭的种类却可以挂满一整张菜单,那里付15块钱就可以畅饮,喝到肾衰竭,另外还赠送一碟瓜子一碟花生。所以,星期二的晚上我们去麦加

    ?

    -------星期二的麦加大会原来只有熊猫一人坐镇,后来她觉得寂寞。就拉上了我和惊人姐。彼时惊人姐修满了毕业所需学分,攥着110的新托成绩单满世界撒申请。值此坐等海外传书,心急上火之际,当然立时勾搭成奸。再加上时不时冒个泡的Daniel,终于凑成一桌麻将

    -------四人坐而论道的局面持续了一段时间。我高中时的朋友呆鸟从K院升到了本部,和熊猫同班。呆鸟家境殷实,有意出国深造。为表决心,毅然从北区的寝室搬到了留学生公寓,提前进入留学状态。留学生公寓到麦加不过200多米,他也就名正言顺地入了伙咸与猥琐。呆鸟念的虽然是法学,却极有外交天赋。自从他来了以后,我们的麦加之行就平添了许多惊喜成分。经常是大家正说着话,外面进来一个女生,直接就冲我们这里面带痴笑:
      啊,呆鸟,怎么这么巧?
      咦?是你啊?我跟朋友聊天呢。
      哦,呵呵,那你们聊哦。
      那些女孩大多打扮新潮,妆容入时。所以以上例行对话结束以后,呆鸟总要转向我们作疲惫状一个熟人。
    :该最后一句的描述实在是经典 DYM经常这么装无奈WHICH让我们很鄙视?? 后每次有其不认识的男生 问吾“who is this?" 姿色中等以下的就答曰路人姿色中等以上不包括中等则答曰:某有深度男”===简称深男

    ?

    -------方宽回归的那天下着小雨,又是一个麦加之夜。店堂里横七竖八地坐了一大群人,除了我们这一群,还多了些呆鸟七拐八弯地顺过来的。我正拿着小勺挖摩卡上边那层奶油。只见一条大汉推门而入,板寸头,黑框镜,络腮胡,颇有些杀气腾腾。要命的是他还不停朝我走过来,走到近处,就是方宽。这个人蓄须之后一改先前忠厚老实的好好先生形象,冷酷到底,性感无比。众人久别重逢,一见开心,部分女生见了方宽这一身霸气,更是一见倾心。一时间咖啡代酒,上下其手,好不热闹。

    注:方SIR的魅力向来无敌,从所就读学校一路杀到所就业学校,还包括中不少的当过实习老师的学校,牛仔裤下拜倒的女生芑是用三位数可以数地完的?

    -------方宽和敏敏的归来为我们带来了新的面孔,也带来了新的话题,那就是就业。麦加党一干人等中最小的我也已不知不觉上到了大二。如今房贵,想早点结婚的几乎是一毕业就要面临按揭。这话题不聊还好,一聊起来难免愁云惨淡。我们念的专业这两年就业不好,其实已经极其优秀的方宽和敏敏竟然落得要去竞争同一个职位,不过到最后谁也没得到,也算是一种不伤和气的结局。我反复掂量着自己,尤其是和方宽以及敏敏暗暗比较。
      整个十二月,麦加的咖啡很沉重。
      麦加的现实主义基调持续了三个星期,然后方宽在市区的一家语言学校找到了工作,去上海集训半个月之后正式上岗,带着他的一身男性魅力踏上了麻辣教师之路,对于他来说,这是一条注定和被女学生骚扰紧密相连的道路。而且这样一来他和Daniel也就成了同行,从此,不辞辛劳地回来情系母校的大军中又多了一条粗犷性感的身影。

    注: 其实只是凑巧和阿宽弟撞上拉,同个行业的好工作都被我们列入猎物范围,结果俺们乡下人连杆猎枪都不会用,怎么跟别人比呢?

    -------只是大家都很明白,有些事,再也不会一样了。呆鸟不再总是废话连篇,经常看他带着雅思的复习资料,他四月份还要再考;熊猫开始大量缺席,我知道期末考试对她还是有比较大的压力。方宽和Daniel一人端一杯咖啡,以色狼看美女的眼神看着我们的这一系列变化,心照不宣的眼神中写满了狼狈为奸。

    注:呆鸟考完试的时候被我拉去听了新东方SUNNY大学的奖学金现场发放讲座兼面试.带他在杭州最繁华的地带逛了逛,不幸被邻居看到,误认作男友,不过幸好呆鸟还算长地一表人材.汗~

    ?

    -------临近期末的时候Daniel的同学十字哥从韩国交换归来。十字哥是杭州人,全家信教,所以一身这年头少见的绅士做派。再加上人长得清秀,杀伤力之强无与伦比。一个很典型的证据就是他来麦加那天连闭门多日的惊人姐都破例出现了。自然少不得又是一番咖啡代酒,上下……

    注:十字哥现在已经在丝绸进出口公司工作了,? 薪水拿得不菲啊!

    这么多人里,第一个认识的当然是同班的阿宽,

    然后是英语角认识的惊人姐,(怎么也没想到她四年后竟那么发达!)

    接下来是比赛认识的大杜,后来正式认做弟弟,全盘出谋划策他的人生头等大事~~.还认识了十字哥,WHO IS 绝对的绅士

    还有在另一场比赛认识的和阿宽搭档的主持JANE,很可爱

    以及在OUTLOOK比赛认识的新人AJ,简直就是"浓缩就是精华"的代言人

    以后是在我很喜欢的"左图右书? "书吧认识的一干人,包括晶晶(除了听过这名以外,还看她在台上拉过小提琴,崇拜!), 美主(宁大网络美女主播), 还有不小心抢走惊人姐心上人的朱朱, ETC.

    ?最后认识了晶的粉丝兼饭友,呆鸟,WHO IS 自恋&健谈. 是个很好的PARTY ANIMANL

    如果有暂时没写上的,下次再补

    ----转毕

    2009版本 转载校内本站
    我AND惊人姐: 惊人姐的妈做梦都想让惊人姐一鸣惊人 所以冠名“鸣”惊人姐果真很惊人的从我大一进校开始就代表学校央视了一次 后为巴结惊人姐 在其演讲下台时上前自我介绍 后惊人姐谓之“有胆” 自此圈子的基本成形标准记为“胆”其实在认识惊人很久以后我才知道最没胆的就是她

    我AND呆鸟:认识呆鸟标志着我大四堕落的开始 后回想之 惊人姐在远赴美利坚时候语重心长要我们俩相互照顾之言下之意就是 你俩一起堕落吧 大四果真是。。。除了工作赚钱 就是与呆鸟在双桥农贸烟酒 时不时与AJ痛批世风 无聊了就找呆鸟出气 一起奶茶 高跟鞋走累了吧臭脚给呆鸟揉 过生日吃饭心情不好有呆鸟的惊喜蛋糕 现在想想要不是互相没有CHEMISTRY(真是奇怪了 一点CHEMISTRY都没有) 怎么可能放过此猥琐男 除了面相长得衰 我们呆鸟还是很高大很上道很拿得出手的嘛 不过 总结之 我是把呆鸟当姐妹疼得 而呆鸟是把我当男人婆供的

    我AND AJ: 我与AJ的记忆停留在一起火车 进京 比赛 闷热 昏倒(他) 争吵 新东方 讲课等等 革命友谊之深是呆鸟这种爱嫉妒的家伙没办法理解的 不过AJ总是拼命往前冲的状态 在他面前我觉得自己很懒很笨很不进步 多年与AJ相处的经验告诉我 拿主意还是要找AJ 但是分析就不用听他的了 因为其长度足以让你睡着

    我与敏敏: 不用说 看该女每每到宁波都与我同挤一条床 我每上杭州都去她家讨饶 就知道这是啥交情了 如今这厮每天MSN上更新状态 PR做的很足

    当年的麦加党 各自走多远 我又虎头蛇尾了

    January 20

    开始生活 我就停止思考了

    这该是一个好的迹象 说明我已经过了欲赋新词强说愁的年纪
    今天吃得很撑 下雪走回家 我觉得这是犒劳
    我觉得grow attached to others是一种很危险的状态 我似乎可以预见一种能量的丧失 
    这可能是一个新的局面 也大有可能是另一次大失望 一朝蛇咬 十年怕绳
    我们都如此
    但是最勇敢的还是用同样的期待面对每一个新的局面 这句话很slogan却很难达到
    我的professor这次来真的了 事态严重到我觉得我要真正得认真学习了
    09年我还是很迷信的看horoscope 今年极端的本命年 
    我们的career development, reloating 还有我的courses等问题 不敢想以后 
    只是告诉自己要努力 要靠自己 要得失淡然 要勇敢
    当然了 要早睡 别那么晚了还在网上白活 
    January 15

    pieces of tinite

     

    Pieces of tonight

    睡不着 看新闻 winslet成了今年金球奖的大赢家 我本来就爱她 现在更加证明她是值得的 于是上youtube上回顾她的东西 有今天她应该是 more than just talent

    如果有背景音乐我放beckeverybodys gotta learn something

    关于memory 我开始渐渐把看过的三部电影联系起来 eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, ashes of time ,还有an one and a two. 虽然后两部是华语 但是关于该话题 似乎是共同的 ashes of time中一语道破 人之所以有烦恼是记性太好的缘故 于是在非现实世界里面 kate Jim 不约而同要求被删除记忆而产生eternal sunshine of spotless mind 而在an one and a two 每个大人都总是忘记上一秒钟发生的事情 “唉?我刚才是要干什么呢?” 是潜意识里面 一直活在回忆里而没办法focus现在还是如beck所唱everybodys gotta learn something于是潜意识的也学会了不太记忆的缘故呢?

    有人把记忆比作烙印  我看也可能是好奇心 小孩子第一次看见气球会好奇 到他看到第100个气球的时候他就没有任何反应了 但是在他脑海里 提到气球出现的画面永远是第一个气球的样子 就好像人永远都忘记不了初恋一样 但是初恋不一定就是最好的那个气球 于是我不相信soul mate一说

    最近也经常忘事

    说返winslet 她的little children我早前也有看 一直觉得她的fresh很让人受用 她一点都不美国 词穷 我只能这么说 看片断时候 有意思的是三个提名人的表情 meryl一如惯例的女王微笑 大方下面的不容触碰的骄傲 毕竟她已经很多次大奖 angelina不可掩盖的妒忌 我从来不喜欢这么张扬的角色 不管是她的戏还是私生活 都太dramatichollywoodamericanboring 我很难recall一部她演的值得看第二遍的片子 当然她是很好的entertaiment噱头 但是跟catherine zeta jones 她的噱头又好像廉价了些 lindsay price的快速消耗噱头比 又没那么有底子 言论自由 粉丝息怒

    Winslet对着镜头跟她小孩说I got it 的时候 我觉得她很幸运的有智慧 如果一切如我所知无甚出入的话 她有爱她的丈夫 可爱的小孩 亲密的朋友 靠努力打拼来的事业 对生活的诚恳 如她所说 她不常得奖 我也不常见到如此不浮躁的hollywooder 当然 希望我看到的即如事实 你知道 有时候非drama的东西可能是drama的升级版 这毕竟是hollywood

    除了少许看一些简单轻松的电影 我已经很久没有新电影入库了 基本就是反复看之前的东西 喜在每看一次都有新的感触 因为电影没变 但是我的生活每天都在改变

    Good nite 谁知道这是一条什么路~

    ---Jan 13rd.2009

    Revolutionary Road

    刚看了 Typical situation Insightful line Clear structure  Ironic tone 早在她的little Children里面见雏形

    我又从头哭到尾 我觉得我疯了

    No one forget about the truth, they just get better with lie.

    Kate winslet marvelous job…

    再议 待续

    只不过 remind me of THE HOURS the Madison Bridge 同年代 同话题 不同结局 depress如现在的美国  只不过现在人们panic的是make a living 而电影们中恐慌的时emptiness 还能说什么呢

    She just need something different things about life, is that the reason why they call her April?

    ---Jan 15th 2009

     

     

    January 12

    梦开始的地方

    Lori Carson的 i want to believe in you 果真是可以反复听整夜的音乐 LUKA好介绍
     
    我的柜子终于在买来1个月后装好了 我们用了不同的screwdriver 最后居然少了一块板而只能残疾在那 使用率75%  sigh....
    最近真是没什么话好说 开学明天 schedule如常 唯一不同的是开始考虑小将来 人与事 每天与非人类打交道 我娘娘的已经非常的有修为了
    我很高兴这些打算都在进行当中 觉得自己没有浪费时间 觉得自己有努力到 自己一直很简单白目的认为努力靠自己就可以心安 于是无论结果如何都可以全盘接受
    目前为止都感觉到很stable i mean mentally
    没什么好写的了 生活中就是过出来的 写的东西不免dramatic 无聊了。。。
     
    December 21

    我在诚恳地说话

    再过两天 来美国就整整4个月了 有时候时间的单位就好像人的状态一样 胶片格子般一个接一个 没有什么大的改变却总是不一样
    我已经好久没写东西了 就像好久没有在以前的状态一样 连写字的语气都完全不一样了
    每次改变一个地方生存就会下定决心要move on 少少回头看
    4个月前我没预料现在我有自己房间 贴满大红色的墙纸 终于在christmas之前有温暖的意思
    1个月前我没预料有的人是可以很快走进何走出我的生活的 我以为我会念念不忘
    3个小时前我没预料我已经好久没有听音乐手记 再听的时候脑子越发清楚 看看自己以前写的东西 庆幸自己没有那么容易的把那些想法记录下来
    2个小时前我没预料到一只冻坏了的泰迪熊静静的坐在我家门口 我似乎已经为自己的决定感到后悔 但是我感觉自己更长大了不会单纯的被情绪控制
    30分钟前有人跟我说 让我positivly想想前面的美好 而3小时前我的日记本上有一句jeanduquoc的文字“if you no longer know where you're going, turn around, look back from where you came"
    现在我不清楚我对生活的各种决定回带我到什么的路上 将来我是什么样子的我 不再juicy的时候我的humor还能那么坚强的存在么?
    我不清楚几个小时后我醒过来会回忆怎样的梦境 也不知道十几个小时以后我会有怎样的际遇 更不清楚更长时间后我会怎样会像现在的状态
    我最近有在读书
    究竟有几多人在认真听我说话 又有几多人能真正进入我所描述的世界 有的人在找自己的同类 而我想不一样对我总是更好的
    这个博客被spoil了 到处都是小三式的ecstasy 可是我说过 在这里我只数琐碎不谈正事
    我希望这个christmas能真正听到flyme to the moon在温软的空气里面
     
     
     
     
    November 20

    supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

    i editted the PS for Ringo this morning, totally understood the feeling when Benny or Nancy did that for me years ago. Logic, Logic, and Logic! i have no idea if i have been too harsh to this kid, but apparently i was as strict as Benny and Nancy couple of minutes ago when i did the editting, maybe a bit more scarstic also:P anyway, for his good,i think i have to be straightforwad and point out specifically, that might be bitchy, but it is not my first time to be bitchy though. lol
     
    i have been through some hard times these days, frailness sometimes appears, but i become regular me when i am working in the office, talking to people or trying to have fun. i think that takes time. it is a lesson anyway, a lesson need some time to swallow by myself.anyway, still need to move on
     
    by the way, supercalifragilisticexpialidocious on Youtube is really funny:) someone mentioned the "childlike prospective" to me the other day, i found her intelligent;
     
    Mary Poppins:
    When trying to express oneself, it's frankly quite absurd,
    To leaf through lengthy lexicons to find the perfect word.
    A little spontaniaty keeps conversation keen,
    You need to find a way to say, precisely what you mean...

    Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!
    Even though the sound of it is something quite atrosicous!
    If you say it loud enough, you'll always sound precocious,

    Ensemble:
    Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!
    Um-diddle-diddle-um-diddleye
    Um-diddle-diddle-um-diddleye

    Mary Poppins:
    When Stone Age men were chatting, merely grunting would suffice.

    Bert:
    Now if they heard this word, they might have used it once or twice!

    Mrs. Corry:
    I'm sure Egyptian pharoahs would have grasped it in a jiff,
    Then every single pyramid would bear this hieroglyph;

    Oh!
    Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!
    Say it and wild animals would not seem so ferocious!

    Mary Poppins:
    Add some further flourishes, it's so ro-co-co-coscious!

    Ensemble:
    Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!
    Um-diddle-diddle-um-diddleye
    Um-diddle-diddle-um-diddleye
    Um-diddle-diddle-um-diddleye
    Um-diddle-diddle-um-diddleye

    Bert:
    The Druids could have carved it on their mighty monoliths!

    Mrs. Corry:
    I'm certain the ancient Greeks would have used it in their midst!

    Mary Poppins:
    I'm sure the Roman Empire only entered the abyss,
    Because those Latin scholars never had a word like this!

    Ensemble:
    Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!

    Mary Poppins:
    If you say it softly the effect can be hypnoscious!

    Bert:
    Check your breath before you speak, in case it's halitotious!

    Ensemble:
    Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!
    Um-diddle-diddle-um-diddleye
    Um-diddle-diddle-um-diddleye
    Um-diddle-diddle-um-diddleye
    Um-diddle-diddle-um-diddleye

    Mary Poppins (spoken):
    Of course you can say it backwards, which is Suoicodilaipxecitsiligarfilacrepus!

    Michael (spoken):
    She may be tricky, but she's bloody good!

    Mary Poppins:
    So when the cat has got your tongue, there's no need for dismay!
    Just summon up this word and then you've got a lot to say!

    Bert:
    Pick out those eighteen consonants and sixteen vowels as well,
    And put them in an order which is very hard to spell...

    Mary Poppins:
    S-u-p-e-r
    C-a-l-i-f-
    R-a-g-i-l-

    Jane and Michael:
    I-s-t-i-c-e-x-p-i-a-l-i-d-o-c-i-o-u-s!

    Ensemble:
    S-u-p-e-r
    C-a-l-i-f-
    R-a-g-i-l-
    I-s-t-i-c-e-x-p-i-a-l-i-d-o-c-i-o-u-s!

    S-u-p-e-r
    C-a-l-i-f-
    R-a-g-i-l-
    I-s-t-i-c-e-x-p-i-a-l-i-d-o-c-i-o-u-s!

    S-u-p-e-r
    C-a-l-i-f-
    R-a-g-i-l-
    I-s-t-i-c-e-x-p-i-a-l-i-d-o-c-i-o-u-s!

    Bert (spoken):
    Here we go!

    Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!
    Even though the sound of it is something quite atroscious!
    If you say it loud enough, you'll always sound precocious,
    Supercalifragilistic-

    Jane and Michael:
    Supercalifragilistic-

    Ensemble:
    Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!
    Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!

     
    November 17

    bounce back hurts

    real hurt me, this time is for real, i am just too spoiled by the high expectation of my imagination.
    now i am pathetically become the people i despised the most before
    November 14

    blogging

    blog is the showing place where u tell people the way you live in order to let people think the way you are is the way you boasts, no matter how subtle the way you convoy....
    so....NOT INTIMATE...
    November 11

    Dante's Inferno

    i finally got the Gustave Dore's illustrated version of Inferno! those pictures are so familiar in my ealy childhood memory! lalalalla, happy ing:P